I dunno why, but i felt a need to transcribe this..

Rob: Um, you find yourself like in love with someone or something and (chuckles)... um... and, you know it becomes... you start.. you start to see too much of yourself...

 (Ashley and Kristen start whispering to each other, about ashley’s ring)

Rob: ...you become too aware of yourself... (turns to the girls) shutup! (laughs)

(Ashley giggles, Kristen laughs and hides her head)

Rob: (slaps his knees) God!

Kristen: (sitting up, smiling, trying to be serious) I’m sorry. 

Rob: (chuckling) um, yeah and you..

Ashley: (still giggling)

Rob: ...and it starts too, um...(trails off) I can’t concentrate anymore.

(All laugh)

Rob: (Back to answering the question) You get so obsessed with the fact that you think you’re not good enough cuz you think the other.. you keep elevating the person higher and higher --

Kristen: Mm-hm, neither of them think their worthy..

Rob: -- but Bella is the one who can handle her stuff, and Edward is just an idiot.  And New Moon is like.. its the only time where he... in Twilight he thinks in these absolute..

(Ashley and Kristen start whispering to each other again)

 Rob: (looks at them, slaps his knees and sighs, exasperated.)

(Ashley and Kristen giggle)

Rob: (laughing, shaking his head) This is why I never..

(all start to laugh)

Rob: (grinning) This is why whenever anyone asks about if we have chemistry in the cast, its not.. you know what it is? Its like.. complete... animosity. (laughing)

Reporter: Yeah, right!

(All laugh)


He is just too cute.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSsz17c4BAg

but i just HAD to post this..

so much fun tonight. hayley williams is my hero.

<3

for some reason, against my better judgement, i let myself slip back into those familiar feelings of more than just friends.
and as usual, it came back to bite me in the ass, again.

so, he has a new girlfriend. why does that make me feel like shit? i totally saw it coming, and deep down i've known all along it wasn't going to happen for us, and yet, it hit me like a punch to the stomach.

OH and lets not mention the text message that i accidentally sent to him yesterday that was supposed to go to my sister and was about him. it wasnt as bad as it could have been, but there was definitely an akwardness today.

ugh, i just feel like an idiot for letting myself get this far.

*sigh*

live and learn i guess. but somehow i never learn.

 

was i wrong to assume that he was assuming? was his comment just friendly conversation, or did he mean what i thought.. ? i still can't decide...

it just reminded me of when my mother went to register my brother at  his new school and the lady asked her if he would be needing ESL...
or when my sister answered a question wrong in french class, and the teacher asked her if it was her first year in canada..

ppl tend to take one look at you and assume all kinds of things. thats the thing about assumptions.. when we ASSUME, we make an ASS out of U and ME!

ok, let me just point out that i dont even LIKE robert pattinson all that much... but this is SUCH a cute picture... !
 

 (i know he cut his hair AGES ago, but this is my first time seeing this particular picture)

i think part of the reason i didnt like him before was that while everyone was going on about his hair, i actually really hated it.

but i absolutely LOVE his haircut! i must say, the man is quite growing on me...

its my last week of break before i go back to school on monday, and yesterday i did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. it was terrible. i slept till like 2 in the afternoon (i was up pretty late reading 'eclipse') then i sat in front of my tv the entire day with my laptop on my lap . all i did was watch 'mr and mrs smith' and surf twilight fan-forums, lol. talk about nerd. i swear, i think my mom thought there was something wrong with me cuz she was all, "what exaclty are you DOING down there?" and im like "nothing", which was basically the truth. then she said something about me being a hermit, lol. but it was true, and i felt pretty gross for laying around unproductively all day, so i promised myself that i would at least clean my room and do laundry tomorrow. but now i woke up feeling like shit (sore throat, nose all congested) so i now i really don't feel like doing anything..

blah.

time to listen to twilight soundtrack. good day.

i FINALLY watched twilight!!! (i know right? i'm always behind for everything..)

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD!!

so, even though i loved the book (im working on 'Eclipse' right now), I was already kind of preparing myself for the fact that the movie was probably going to suck. and well... it kind of did, lol. it was mostly the first half of the movie that bothered me.

i guess it doesnt help that im not the biggest kristen stewart fan (the way she talks just kind of annoys me) and im one of the few people who doesnt think robert pattinson is hot (im sorry, but his hair just looks like a mop)  so already i went into it knowing that the ideal edward and bella that i had in my head from reading the book weren't going to be on screen.

but that aside, i just found the entire first half of the movie really poorly done. it just felt so choppy and really akward at times. it felt like they took all the important points of the book and slapped them together and got to the action. they didnt develop edward and bella's story properly AT ALL.. edward came accross as this creepy stalker, and bella switched from annoyed to in love without much explanation. they rushed the most important parts of the book and basically missed the essence of the story.

i was also bothered by how much they changed and how many scenes they left out. I KNOW that turning a 500 page book into a 2 hour movie means a lot is going to get cut out, but i just felt like there was SO much good material and dialoge from the book that they could of included, and they chose not to. the meadow scene had a completely different tone from the book (they turned 2 scenes into one, and edward just looked angry for the whole thing), there wasnt enough of alice, jasper's powers arent mentioned, the story of the volturi isnt told (its kind of important considering new moon), and there was one montage (after the kissing scene) of them talking on the bed and it bothered me that we don't hear what they are saying.. edward and bella had a lot of meaningful conversations in the book and it felt like most of them were left out. how are we meant to believe that bella is "wholeheartedly and irrevocably in love" with edward when we never got to see or hear anything that really shows why? she just suddenly IS, even while he's telling her that he basically wants to kill her. it just doesnt make sense in the movie as it did in the book.

now you might think, "well you just didnt like it because it wasnt exactly like the book", but i think if i had watched the movie WITHOUT reading the book, it would have been worse... i would have thought it was the most retarded thing ever created. it just would not have made ANY sense. i think the fact that i read the book made the movie a bit more tolerable because i knew how it was SUPPOSED to be and it was just cool to see the characters in my head come to life.

really, i blame the director for the poor quality of this film. and the screenplay could have been SO much better considering the material she had at her disposal.

all that being said, even though im not rob and kristin's biggest fan, they did alright job, considering. the two main things i didnt like from them was robs over the top reaction to bella's smell in the bio lab, and kristin stuttering at the hospital scene at the end when edward suggests her leaving. most of the actors were pretty good at matching up to the characters.. i really liked charlie surpsisingly, rosalie was an awesome biotch, and the rest of the cullens were great (except for jasper who looked like she was constipated for the entire movie!) the school kids were good, tho mike could have been cuter, and eric kind of annyed me, lol. angela seemed just as sweet as in the book, and jessica was spot on.

i should probably mention that i really LOVED the baseball scene and basically everything after that. i DO like that they added the fight scene that didnt exist in the book., and victoria lurking at the end. and there were some funny moments, like charlie with his rifle right before meeting edward, the cullens graduation caps, and edward in the restaurant with the "sex.. money.. sex.. cat.", lol. it was mainly the just the first half with the (non)development of the relationships that i didnt like..

im totally planning on watching new moon, and im hoping that the new director and a bigger budget will help make that movie WAY better than this one. im also excited cuz i actually REALLY liked jacob. which reminds me, about taylor lautner...  when i first heard that he might be replaced for new moon, i felt bad for the guy. but after watching the film, to be honest, i wont feel THAT bad if they recast him cuz he wasnt THAT great and he kind of talks like valley girl, lol!

OH OH AND! they didnt play "decode" until the credits!  that made me sad. BUT rob pattinson has a pretty awesome voice! i loved "let me sign" and it fit PERFECTLY into the scene... i actually almost teared up at that part..

ok this is long enough... feel free to comment and let me know if you agree or disagree! despite everything i said i hated about the film, i will probably watch it again and decide that it wasnt so bad...


 

i finished reading it yesteday, and im already like a third of the way through new moon. i REALLY want to watch it now, and i'm leaving on monday so if i dont, i have to wait 2 weeks till i get back. one of my friends already promised me that we would go the day after, even though she already saw it with her boyfriend. but im SO itching to just go right now. they just opened a new theatre accross the street and its playing there, so i wouldnt take much to just walk over and catch it before i have to go to work. but i really shouldnt because im supposed to spend this weekend packing and cleaning and laundry and such for my trip, and my friend made me promise to wait till i get back so we could go together...  BUT I WANT TO GO RIGHT NOW!! waaahhhh :(

must. exhibit. self. restraint.

blah.

on another crappy note, leaving for my trip on monday means IM MISSING THE LAST EPISODE OF PB!!!! im trying really hard not to think about it, but im really sad because that also means 2 weeks before i can watch it . as much as im excited to get out of this freaking cold weather and relax in sunny panama, it just sucks that i have to leave on a MONDAY of all days.

anyways, im off to do laundry and mope. i'll be happier once im on a plane.
 

also kinda sucks that i probably wont get to watch the movie till i come back, and now im really anxious to see it. i made a conscious effort tho to try to read it independantly from the movie, and not think of bella and edward as robert and kristin, but rather create my own picture of them in my mind based on how the book describes them. im anxious to see if  it measures up to the book, tho i have to say i have a feeling it wont. from the ads, i already feel like it has a different tone than the book, and i cant imagine that they were able to include everything, not to mention what i;ve already said about the two main actors.... ill hope im proven wrong tho, because i want the movie to be as good as the book..

anyways, i think its safe to say i'm offically hooked!

1. who is gunna make me shiny pretty icons of the MiSa hug from 4x12?? :yes? no? anyone? i will love you forever :D

2. just for the record, and cuz it needs to be said again... "selfless" = epic. EPIC! i think the best episode in .... well, i basically have been saying that every week this season, but it really just keeps topping itself week after week. i mean i KNEW it was all too good to be true, and for the last 10 minutes of the ep, i was jus waiting for the other shoe to drop... but for that small moment, they were able to breathe and just... *sigh*. It was all very "sona"-ish when all was right with the world until bill kim showed up and sara shot him.. yeah. and lets just say i'm very happy there are 2 episodes left, cuz for a minute there i thought that was the last one and i nearly DIED.  

3. i fell asleep at 7pm tonight and woke up at 1am. now im all disoriented, its nearly 2, and i have to get up at 7am.

went: "and then i a squeeeeeeezed her ass like this..."
sarah: "mmm, yes... yes, he did..."
 

and zac efron was in it.
 

lol.


ok the wierd thing is i dont even like zac efron THAT much. i mean yeah he's cute and all,and i have younger siblings so ive seen HSM 1 & 2 about 18 million times. but its very odd for him to be in my dream. and i realized that HSM3 opened this weekend, and my little sister was going to watch it today with her friends.. but still, why would i be dreaming about him?

ok so the dream.  i dont remember it as vividly as i did this morning (i actually rarely remember my dreams but for some reason, this one i remembered)  i was driving to school, and i was dropping a friend off... it was some random person who i dont even know...  and i dropped her off and parked my car, and  went into school. then i get to class and i realize i forgot my laptop in the car. so i walk back to the car.. and as im walking accross the field to the paking lot, zac efron and vanessa hudgens (yeah she was in it too, i dunno why... i guess theyre a package deal these days) are walking in like the same direction as me.. so im kinda walking next to them, and i smile at them and kinda give them the nod. and they give me the smile/nod back (not that we knew each other or anything, just  polite/friendly gesture). after a bit of walking i say something like "enjoying the weather?" (which is a joke cuz its windy and cold)  and zac laughs and goes " yeah, its never this cold in california" and i say "i bet it isnt, mr. efron"  and he smiles goes "but ppl also arent as friendly either, so i guess its a trade off." and i laugh and agree. then they turn to go into a building,  and as theyre leaving, i go "hey where's corbin?" (wtf?!) and zac smiles and goes "hes inside rehearsing", and im like "tell him i say hi!" (we both know i obviously dont know him) and zac  laughs and says "i will!" and they dissapear into the building. 


it was SO RANDOM.  WHY would i dream that? and vanessa says nothing in the whole dream. she just smiles and giggles. wtf?
 

rewatching eps from last season, and  i cant believe i almost forgot how much i love this show..

last time, my brother got a q-tip stuck in his ear and my parents had to take him to the hospital...

this week, som kid threw a rock at our window and broke the glass.

i love how my first concern whenever something happens is "fuck, im gunna miss prison break.."

priorities, lol.

- i got interviewed a few days ago for a piece about tuition fees. and then yesterday they called me up and asked if they could come to my school and take a picture of me in the studio. so, i might be in the paper tomorrow!